Travel inspiration: A journey to inner peace
Its usually said that when one door closes a window opens…. The problem is that sometimes, the fall is so bad, that even this logical sentence feels like a lie.
And that’s how 2015 started for me, it was a massive fall, in every possible way.
It seems like the Universe was conspiring to crash absolutely all my plans and dreams. On top of that, I lost all my sources of income at the same time. I got in such a financial struggle, I thought I would have to miss all the flights I had already bought, because I wouldn’t be able to afford any travel expense. I wondered how the heck would I manage to go through this year.
I got so down I couldn’t write. I dropped my blog for a whole month, and for the first time ever. I packed my bags and took off to my mother’s house for a few days, because I simply couldn’t be alone. I had to ask my friends for help.
AN AMAZING THING I FOUND OUT!
One thing many people don’t understand, is that with my lifestyle, you’re always meeting exciting and interesting people, but… you rarely create very long lasting relationships, or at least your friends are rarely around you. So when things go bad, you find yourself totally alone.
Bu I have some new friends I made through Cs here in Portugal, and I sent them all an email saying: “I need HELP! I’M CRUMBLING DOWN” the amazing thing, is that they came for me immediately.
A couple of hours of intense crying and many hugs later, I felt better. If you need help, ask for it! People will come
ONCE YOU LET THE LIGHT IN, IT WILL DISSIPATE ALL DARKNESS
Something amazing happened after that night. Although everything was bad and I had no idea how I’d get out of it, I was not as alone as I thought I was. There were actually people who cared.
Once I started seeing the positive within the negative everything changed. The tears were still falling down without control, but there were more dry times in between.
Out of the blue, Sabrina, my fav. travel blogger from Just One way ticket, sends me an urgent message on FB: “ the flights to Manila are costing 30€, book yours NOW!” She was insisting I had to book it immediately, barely allowing me to think. Fortunately, I did!
That’s when I realized, “I just got my ticket to the Philippines, which I thought was 100% impossible, now I HAVE the obligation to move my ass and make everything work out for me. No more crying around!”
WHEN EVERYTHING FAILS, HIT THE ROAD
So in order to fix my serious income problem, I had to head towards southern Portugal. Although this might sound like an exciting thing to do, it is not, when you have to spend a ton of money on diesel, to cross country.
So I left in a mix of excitement and worry. Odd thing, the diesel price had a massive fall the day I filled my tank, this was the cheapest I paid in 10 years!
And then the second ray of light came in. It was fun to drive cross country like in the old days, and this time I had Pogo with me. Wow, traveling always changes my mood!
IF THE SUN IS SHINNING, SOAK ALL THE LIGHT YOU CAN
Traveling around with no fixed time to arrive, was a bliss. Home was everywhere I parked my van and everyday my home was either facing a forest, a beach, an almond field filled with flowers….
Together Pogo and I had a blast, exploring the different beaches around. In fact, we had so much fun I totally forgot I had been depressed.
The world is so beautiful, so majestic, how could I waste my precious time feeling depressed? Yes, I’m struggling with money like never before, but…. How blessed am I to have food on the table every single day, a roof over my head, being healthy, having the eye sight to see the beauty of the world….. How lucky I am.
ANGELS DO EXIST, JUST ALLOW THEM TO FIND YOU!
One afternoon my handyman came over to fix a cabinet in my kitchen.
As the always smiley Brazilian handyman enters through the door, I grab Pogo, who is famous for not being a big fan of men (he was a street dog and had been beaten multiple times by guys, I guess he has a trauma). Pogo is usually my “aura reader” machine, or in other words; if he likes someone, that person is great if not…. stay away! He’s very accurate and only a handful of men managed to pass the Pogo test.
Pogo runs towards the cute handyman and licks his arms and face in absolute excitement, as if you had just given candy to a child! That had never happened during the 9 years he’s been living with me!
I tell the handyman that Pogo had never liked someone so fast. “They like me. I always had dogs. I’m a nice guy you know.” and smiles. I definitely can see that!
So we started chatting and the conversation turned into a very deep dialogue about life, love and relationships. We talked for hours, till the sun went down. He told me:
“ How come an amazing girl like you is alone????”
I replied: “ I’ve been on a very stable relationship for more than 13 years . I was actually convinced it was forever. Now he moved to another country and I’m dwelling on what to do with my life. .”
I told him that with my crazy lifestyle, filled with traveling, “a relationship is where I find stability, peace and warmth.”
He said with a huge smile: “ your wandering ONE is already on your path. 2015 will be your year my darling. Just open your heart to life and everything will pour in. Trust in the Universe. Let life flow through you and enjoy whatever comes along.”
We talked about the fear men usually have of getting married and he was surprised I actually don’t want to get married. “Marriage is good, although you have to know how to keep sex alive. I was terrified of marriage, but then… I got over it!”
That night I went to my van and slept like an angel. You know what? 2015 really will be my year, and yours as well, if we open our hearts to life. The key to happiness is to trust in that everything will be ok and even the worse experiences happen for a reason. They all come with a precious lesson!
When everything goes wrong, just surrender…. Be like water
WHEN YOU FALL REALLY HARD, THE ONLY WAY OUT IS UP!
I’ve been working really hard lately and my blog is finally taking off. Soon, I’m becoming financially sustainable, which is crucial for the survival of this website. So, this is quite exciting!
My trip to Manila is booked and I can’t wait! The Philippines have been on my mind for at least 4 years now.
I was one of the chosen travel bloggers, to attend the New media conference in Bucharest, Romania, a great opportunity to meet new travel bloggers, and see some old ones. I’m extremely excited and grateful for this opportunity. Life is not so bad after all.
Right now, life is good. The next chapter awaits!